hmm. there are soo many things that i could say right now. let's see... where to start. i spent the 4th in the chicagoland area. visited some friends.. went to the taste... watched some fireworks... overall, i had a great time. i did a lot of talking with one of my good friend's sister. we talked about a lot of different things. she gets props for being a very talented and cool person.

i have also been doing a lot of thinking and a lot of analyzing of my life and what i want. a lot of that came from that weekend. since you are probably in the dark... i will try to clarify a little. i attempted to get a hold of the girl that i was interested in... and i got a hold of her mom on thursday. her mom then called me on friday and gave me a message from her daughter... along with the phone number of where i could reach her daughter at. i called and she seemed excited that i was coming up to the area. we made plans to do something that night... to "meet up". so, i was happy... excited... looking forward to the weekend. i knew that i would only be able to see her for a little while when i got there because she was going out of town for the weekend. i got to my friends place and gave her a call... she was running an errand for her mom... so i left the number of where i was at and told her mom that i would be there for about 45 minutes to an hour. i waited around for her to get home and call me... and time continued to tick by. after an hour and a half... i was getting ready to leave, so i figured that i would call one more time. i called... and she answered the phone. she said that she was just getting ready to call me... which may or may not have been the truth. i don't know why she would have a reason to lie to me... but anyway... she told me that she was too tired to get together. i wished her a safe trip for her weekend travels... and then she mentioned that she would be back on sunday night... and i suggested that we get together on monday. she said that she would give me a call monday when she got up... so again, i was somewhat happy. in the meantime i mentioned that i had sent her a couple emails and if she hadn't checked her email... that there were a couple of them in there from me. she said she would check it before she went to bed... and then we hung up.

the weekend went great... had a lot of fun... and met some new people. monday came around... and no call from shannon. i left town around 4pm... without word from her. i still have not heard from her. on the drive home, i talked about her and asked my friends for advice as to what they thought that i should do. i received mixed responses about what to do... but in my own mind... i gave up on it all.

i have tried really hard to spend time with her... to talk to her... to keep in touch with her. i have also been very busy this summer... working a ton of hours... but i still took time out to send her an email or give her a call. i have received nothing back from all of those attempts. i don't know what her intentions were... or what they are now... but i do know that i am not going to worry about it anymore... and i knew that on the ride home from that weekend. i really liked her... enjoyed spending time with her... but i am not a stupid person... and i can only do so much. that chapter of my life... is set aside.

the past week i have been hanging out with some new people. met some cool girls and had a lot of fun. for the past several days, i have been spending a lot of time with a girl that lives in my building... a girl i met recently. her and i have seen each other everyday since we met... and i am really enjoying the time that we have been spending together. even when we were doing something that neither of us were having a good time at (ie. "greek reunion" block party) i still felt comfortable and enjoyed myself. i hope that her and i continue to spend time together... and we shall see where things go from there.

in closing, i am sorry about the lack of updates... but for those of you that sent me messages wondering about what was up... where things stand now, i hope that this cleared it up. as a side note, the "greek reunion" block party was a gathering of a whole bunch of greeks (fraternities and sororities). i am not in a frat... so i was a little out of place. however, i saw a whole bunch of girls i know.. so it wasn't all that bad... but was far from being a "good time".

take care...