ahh. it feels good to have something to think about, something that i can ponder on end. there are drawbacks though, the subject that i am pondering is not the most delightful thing to ponder. oh well, i shall live and maybe i will even get lucky and things will work out the way that i want them to. even if they don't i will have lost nothing, hopefully.

so are you guys wondering what i am contemplating? well, wonder no longer. my thoughts have been focused on a single person. that is unusual for me, being that i normally do not have one single person in my life, at least i haven't for a long time. so, why is it that things have changed suddenly? who knows, i just know that i am not going to complain. i am close to being happy. which is unusual.

hmm... well, i might as well tell you about the 'bad' part of the situation. the person that is occupying my thoughts is not available. now, don't take offense yet. i am not actively persuing this person, but i am thinking about her a lot. i would not try to break her up with her bf, but that won't stop me from hoping that she would. all i know is that when i am around her i am happy, and i like that. if it ends up that all i can have out of this is a friendship, then i would be more than willing to except that and leave things at that. one thing i will not do, is attempt to break her current relationship... not that i would even come close to succeeding even if i tried.

well, here is the tidbit of information about guys that i promised. a lot of guys are a lot more than they let on to be. superficiality is something that the male species has perfected, but if you dig deeper, you may find something underneath. don't push too hard though, because that will only cause the shell to get thicker. just a word of advice, take it how you may.