wow. sorry about the lapse in time. anyway, i'm back once again to write down my thoughts... and there are tons of them. let's see, where should i start? there has been so much that has happened since the last time i wrote. anyway, might as well start from the beginning.

the girl that i was/am so interested in... still holds that status, but for the well-being of both of us, i am going to back off and be nothing more than a friend. things were starting to get awkward, due to her having a boyfriend. the main emphasis on my action should be that i am only lying back because i don't want things to get awkward or uncomfortable. if you knew how we are when we are around each other, you would know why i wouldn't want to lose that. anyway, she means a lot to me... no matter what status she holds in my life.

school... there is another topic that i can discuss. things are going somewhat decently... and i am getting good grades in all my classes so far. there are a lot of things that i can say about school in general but i think most of it should be left to your imagination. i will say one thing though, i have yet to forget my name... which is a goal i hope to never attain.

have you ever been confused? wishing that things would just fix themselves... correct the problems that were there. i often feel like that... especially now. i wish that things were easier in my life, but then maybe i would be bored with it... and take things for granted. then again, maybe not.

now for the tidbit on guys, and some insight to the ladies.. from a male perspective. there are beginnings and there are ends.. guys are somewhere in between. you don't need us for everything but you want us there at some point. guys are also very naive... your little "hints" that you like a guy are probably not anywhere as close to as obvious as you think they are. guys are slow when it comes to signs... so remember that. now, the insight on girls... i think a majority of the ladies in college are mostly at the same point, confused... in relationships... and still wanting freedom. at some point, things need to be figured out and you have to decide what you want... there are some great guys out there that will give you both freedom and a relationship. there are also the ones out there that will cause nothing but pain. if you are unhappy, then end the situation... otherwise i wish you the best of luck and hope your relationship goes on for as long as you want it to. just don't let yourself fall prey to the "i have been with him for so long, i can't end it now" type attitude. attachment is one thing, but you have to detach at some point. remember the embilical cord from when you were a baby?