my life for many years i have taken the flack i have taken the put downs and the talk behind my back i have tried to keep my head high to keep going through the think and the thin to forget what people say and to ignore what they have done through the years i have used what i have learned i have built relationships with what i love i have built a life for which i can live as to what i will build next will be everlasting love hardly anyone will see it and even fewer will know i have had a hard life i have tried hard to make it right i have brought myself out of chaos and taught myself to be proud no one ever compliments me no one seems to care i work so hard but people see me as if i am not even there people say i "brag too much" people say that i am annoying people say mean things to me and people say that i am a "geek" i have taken this shit i have risen above them all i have learned to live my life but i still continue to fall why is it that people put me down? what is so hard about saying one good thing to me.. when i am around what is so wrong with me that i don't deserve any respect? my problem is, i have only my self-respect. i am the only one that keeps my life going i am the only one, thats says anything good i talk to bring up my self-esteem but as soon as i do... i am met again, with people like you i say something good you say i am bragging i do one good thing and you put me down for it sometimes i don't see the point in going on my life will be the same no one will listen and everyone will put me to shame i have learned that i can't change how people act i have learned that i am the only one that cares i have been taught that i can't do anything right but i have never been shown how it is to be done i have finally given up you people have won i am tired of trying because of you, i will never be able to have fun i goof off to be accepted and in return i am told that i am immature i act more mature and the people go back to poking fun i am quitting the battle you have won the war i am abandoning my efforts i am finally done this poem was written for all to see i am revealing myself not for pity not for love not for put downs i am revealing myself for all to see and i am not doing it for you i am doing it for me - Liquid Steel   [[ back ]]